Well friends, here we are with part 2…here I am going to let you in a little deeper and get more personal. I am honestly terrified to post this on the internet but I think it’s important to show the pretty and also the ugly because that is the conundrum here – what may look beautiful on the outside is actually very ugly on the inside. My implants are slowly poisoning me and making me sick and although this does not happen to everyone that gets breast implants…is it worth risking the possibility of destroying your health for?
Since I was 14 years old, I had always said I’d be getting breast implants, yes before I was fully developed I had already made up my mind. I would sit and watch Dr. 90210 and I was obsessed with the fantasy of having big fake boobs. Fast forward to when I was 25 years old in 2015, I finally made the jump. And I will also note here, in my research at that time, I had stumbled upon stories exactly like mine and none of it changed my mind about how badly I wanted this surgery. I would roll my eyes and think – that will never happen to me. If anyone reading this is feeling that way, I totally understand. And you may be right, but what if you’re not? What if you are like me and some time down the road you feel like you are falling apart and completely regret having your boobs done? What if you decided to instead love your body as it is and spare yourself thousand’s of dollars in surgeries and also medical bills from all the side effects and years of your life trying to figure out what is wrong with you?
It may be hard to believe, but just a short week after I had my breast augmentation, I fell into a deep depression that forced me to quit my job and not get out of bed for an entire month. Followed by debilitating fatigue and feeling so anxious that I couldn’t sleep.
I was suddenly not myself and I didn’t know why. After the pain from surgery subsided, my joints began to ache and my hair started to fall out at an alarming rate…which has continued to this day, almost six years later. It comes and goes in cycles but every 6 months or so, I will find another bald spot. I have also learned that my body is attacking my thyroid. I developed an autoimmune disorder known as Hashimoto’s, found by my TPO (Thyroid Peroxidase) being extremely elevated; over 50 when normal range is less than 9!
There also are so many other mysterious health issues that are too much to list here, but I know only time will tell if the implants are causing all of the things, some, or not at all. But my intuition tells me they are the cause as I have tried every diet and cleanse imaginable and never feel any better. It is not a coincidence that all of this started happening right after having my augmentation.
Like why am I all of a sudden allergic to tomatoes?! I love them and miss them but when I eat them, my goodness do I get a crazy rash. Why do I get frequent infections for no obvious reason? Why do I wake up everyday feeling so tired and my mind is always so foggy? I am so sick of always feeling SICK and never knowing why.
So, to my 25 year old self: I love you but please just love your body as it is. Getting some foreign objects implanted inside your chest cavity is going to wreck your health like you wouldn’t believe. And most importantly, they won’t make you happy like you thought they would. They will actually make you sick and depressed. The real happiness is found in yourself, loving you and also surrounding yourself with people who deeply care about you, eating healthy, getting enough sleep, chasing your dreams, and living life.
Next up – Part 3…pre-op visit with my doctor and an overview of what we discuss. Stay tuned!